no wonder they always come on this early in the morning =/ …
wow.. =/ not to be nosy, but i’ve been wondering what’s been keeping you so heartbroken ever since i’ve followed you. now i know. i’ve definitely been there before.
Yeah, I normally don’t post shit when it comes to my personal life but tonight I guess I needed to vent. I never knew it was that obvious that I’m heart broken. Guess so =/
it’s okay though for us to see how heartbroken you were because now we see how much you’re progressing from it and learning from it all =)
You can go into a relationship as a whole (person) and once you leave that relationship, you’re shredded into bits on ya way out. The hardest part of leaving a relationship is finding yourself as a whole again by yourself because you gave it your very all, with all you’ve got to a person who was your other half. After all those times spent with all that you had to offer, you gave more than you can take. It’s hard to give something away, that you can’t take back for yourself. It’s what leaves some people being at their most vulnerable state. When you lose a part of yourself, it’s difficult to move on. Taking it steps at a time is the slowest time to understand what to do now, now that everything is all on you, and only you. And nobody wants to be alone right when everything is over and done with.
For the past year, I waited for this. I can’t wait until this is finally over. Now that it’s over, I don’t feel happy as expected. If anything, I’m in deep pain. It’s been lonely these past 3-4 months. Very lonely without you. I went from basically living with you to seeing you once a week. Of course I miss you. I miss us. Though the bad outweighed the good. We did have some good times together. I experienced things with you that I never have with anyone else. Good and bad. But in the end, as much as I love you, I had to walk away from you. From us. Our relationship did nothing but damage. You hurt me over and over again. But it doesn’t come close to how much I hurt myself because of you.
Three years of friendship that shouldn’t have gone any further. I’ve never seen a controlling, manipulating side of you until we got together. Yet, like a stupid girl, I stayed. It kills me to think back on all the stupid shit I’ve done for you. I lost everything that was so close to me. My friends, my home, close bond with my family, Elijah…
You brought out another side of me no one as seen. Not even me. I turned into this terrible person I never wanted to be. All because of you. But all I have is myself to blame. I allowed you to do this to me. I allowed it all to happen. It makes me hate myself sometimes. I turned into a monster. Now I’m back to trying to find myself again. But despite all the pain I have gone through, dealing with on my own for the past year, I don’t regret you, us, any of it. You taught me a lot. Thank you.
I miss us but I’m happy it’s over. I know what I deserve now. This healing process hurts so much. It’s lonely. I guess I just miss the comfort of you always being here. You were my best friend. Shit, you were my only friend at a point. Now I’m all alone.. and I’m okay with that. Day by day I’m slowly getting over you. It’ll be awhile until I start dating again. Hopefully everything I’ve learned from us will help me have a healthy relationship in the future. No one can ever take your place. But someone will come into my life, who deserves me, and make it all better.
I guess this is it. My good bye to you. My closure. Thank you for everything.
I love you.
-Dianna
wow.. =/ not to be nosy, but i’ve been wondering what’s been keeping you so heartbroken ever since i’ve followed you. now i know. i’ve definitely been there before.
I never part my hair down the middle =/.
(via bonita-applebum)
why is she inside my head.
I’ma buy this for my boyfriend if have one(: HAHAHAHA!
haha ;D
from LaTonya (conformitysavior.tumblr.com)
The beginnings of my sleeve….I hate flowers but I love roses…
MY GIRLPRENNNNNNN !! =D
(via embrace)
I thought this was dope. Found it on Msn Lifestyle by Laura Schaefer.
Love is mysterious, fascinating, and when you find it with the right person, there’s nothing better. Here are 25 surprising love facts to puzzle over and embrace.
Love is a many-splendored thing … and a very surprising thing, too. As if you needed proof of that, here are 25 funny little facts about love. Study them, scratch your head over them, and share them with someone you fancy.
1. Men who kiss their wives in the morning live five years longer than those who don’t.
2. People are more likely to tilt their heads to the right when kissing instead of the left (65 percent of people go to the right!)
3. When it comes to doing the deed early in the relationship, 78 percent of women would decline an intimate rendezvous if they had not shaved their legs or underarms.
4. Feminist women are more likely than other females to be in a romantic relationship.
5. Two-thirds of people report that they fall in love with someone they’ve known for some time vs. someone that they just met.
6. There’s a reason why office romances occur: The single biggest predictor of love is proximity.
7. Falling in love can induce a calming effect on the body and mind and raises levels of nerve growth factor for about a year, which helps to restore the nervous system and improves the lover’s memory.
8. Love can also exert the same stress on your body as deep fear. You see the same physiological responses — pupil dilation, sweaty palms, and increased heart rate.
9. Brain scans show that people who view photos of a beloved experience an activation of the caudate — the part of the brain involving cravings.
10. The women of the Tiwi tribe in the South Pacific are married at birth.
11. The “Love Detector” service from Korean cell phone operator KTF uses technology that is supposed to analyze voice patterns to see if a lover is speaking honestly and with affection. Users later receive an analysis of the conversation delivered through text message that breaks down the amount of affection, surprise, concentration and honesty of the other speaker.12. Eleven percent of women have gone online and done research on a person they were dating or were about to meet, versus seven percent of men.
13. Couples’ personalities converge over time to make partners more and more similar.
14. The oldest known love song was written 4,000 years ago and comes from an area between the Tigris and Euphrates Rivers.
15. The tradition of the diamond engagement ring comes from Archduke Maximillian of Austria who, in the 15th century, gave a diamond ring to his fiancée, Mary of Burgundy.
16. Forty-three percent of women prefer their partners never sign “love” to a card unless they are ready for commitment.
17. People who are newly in love produce decreased levels of the hormone serotonin — as low as levels seen in people with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Perhaps that’s why it’s so easy to feel obsessed when you’re smitten.
18. Philadelphia International Airport finished as the No. 1 best airport for making a love connection, according to an online survey.
19. According to mathematical theory, we should date a dozen people before choosing a long-term partner; that provides the best chance that you’ll make a love match.
20. A man’s beard grows fastest when he anticipates sex.
21. Every Valentine’s Day, Verona, the Italian city where Shakespeare’s play Romeo and Juliet took place, receives around 1,000 letters addressed to Juliet.
22. When we get dumped, for a period of time we love the person who rejected us even more, says Dr. Helen Fisher of Rutgers University and author of Why We Love. The brain regions that lit up when we were in a happy union continue to be active.
23. Familiarity breeds comfort and closeness … and romance.
24. One in five long-term love relationships began with one or both partners being involved with others.
25. OK, this one may not surprise you, but we had to share it: Having a romantic relationship makes both genders happier. The stronger the commitment, the greater the happiness!
first dream.
i was walking throughout the halls of my old school FDHS in MD. guys that i knew and went there with kept poking at my little buttcheeks. the end. weird? i know right? smh.
second dream.
i walked into my dance class. my female cousins were there and a bunch of other females that i knew. our instructor gets up and says “i know we have a lot of work to do, but we gotta get it done.” … “and one more announcement, everyone knows that Keshia is getting married to her current bf, Ra’chean, tomorrow so let’s congratulate her” *claps.. and i’m smiling so hard to the point i wanna cry cause i was thinking about who i was marrying..
well, me and him broke up like two days ago =/ …
kid cudi, wiz khalifa, drake, wale, lupe, and currensy =D
(via vizz)
LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.I AM GOING TO SLEEP!!!
LMAOOOOOOOO
LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO! for some reason.. i can see jon (juaneningles) saying this and making this face. he’s the pedo bear.
i won’t be in maryland til december 22nd or 23rd -_-
